That's what I intend to be; a writer. Writing is an escape for me - when I'm down or when I'm bored, or simply when I want my hand to do something. But that's not all. It's a spiritual action - especially depending on what one is writing. If I'm writing poetry, chances are, my mood is at it's most spiritual - afterwards I get into my religious book and say my prayers, etc.
I come from a familey of writers. My parents are writers - my father - although I don't know him - seems too to be one. I suppose it's the gene, the literary force behind the act of one reading that seeps into the genes and causes the children to want to do the same. My mother said that when I was a baby, she used to bring home giant books for me to read and I'd flip through the huge pages as If I was actually reading them. It's to my parents - as well as God, that I give thanks for helping me to understand the craft of writing. I can only hope I have "The Gift" for it.
My hope is to, as soon as I get into college, get into film school, see how I like working behind the camera. I'd even try my hand at directing - though I think you have to be kind of outgoing for that and I am a bit shy. Film has recently in this stage of my life captivated me, made me wonder. Ever since the first time I saw Suddenly Last Summer, when I was caught up in the action of Mission Impossible, when I discovered the "Truth" of the X-files. Although I find Hollywood itself to be a very worldly and godless place, I feel that that act of creating the film itself is rewarding spiritually - especially if what you are writing and filming about has a message within it. People go to the movies for one of four reasons: To be uplifted, to be scared, to be entertained and to learn. Upliftion, entertainment and learning I believe to be the most important of these. Horror is nothing; It's mindless fluff; but even horror can have a message - if it's pulled off well. Rosemary's baby is one of these, and few others I can't recall at the moment. As a screenwriter, you create a mood, a time, a place, and characters for the mood, time and place and you send them on a journey. That journey can be hopeless, spiritual, bogus, terrifying or completly pointless. As a filmmaker, you bring that world from paper to life, to the big screen, to the people who then gleen what they gleen from it, (often in humourously condescending articles.) I think that is very - for lack of a more sophisticated sounding word - Cool.
This blog is mostly for me - for me to post a poem I might wrote - a song I hum to myself one day - a prayer - or to write. This is one of my free minutes. I hoep to have many, many more.
This really doesn't have much to do with this thing I've written but it always makes me feel better somehow to read this poem. The Cloud, By Percy Bysshe Shelley is one of my favorites. It's wet and lonsesome, wild and quiet, thoughtful and quick. It also happens to be what my second middle name means. This is the last part of the poem:
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I am the daughter of earth and water, And the nursling of the sky;
I pass through the pores of the ocean and shores; I change, but I cannot die.
For after the rain when with never a stain, The pavilion of heaven is bare,
And the winds and sunbeams with their convex gleams, Build up the blue dome of air,
I silently laugh at my own cenotaph, And out of the caverns of rain,
Like a child from the womb, like a ghost from the tomb, I arise and unbuild it again.
